I'm back, bitches!

After  a long two year hiatus, I's BACK!
It was hella shit going on in my RL that caused me to be deep into SL as an escape and then people decided they should force thier insecurities and misery on me there too, So, I left.
I am the sweetest bitch you'll ever meet.  So for someone to treat me i such a way is something unfathomable for me.
I had losses in my life.  Big ones. So now my attitude towards ANY fuckery is there will be NO FUCKERY. Period. 
My ride or dies are still my ride or dies! I love them for that too! I missed the shit outta them! 
To the dudes who throw things in my face about my relationship with them, you're pussies. There ain't shit to tell aside from the normal. It was TWO of us in this, remember? Try me!

Hate on Me!

The next time 1 of you bitches wants to be messy, have the BALLS to step to me about my shit! This is an open forum, I will say what the fuck I want to without a filter! Let's be clear about 1 thing; I have NOTHING against ANY women of ANY race or multiple races! You don't pay attention to HALF the shit I say until you can use it to get some sick self satisfaction! If you are offended, FUCK YOU, I want you to be!
And since this is happening on a new SL FB page, I know that same shit stirring bitch who ran and told someone who I cared about that I was talking about them in a negative way, WHEN I CLEARLY wasn't, got that page deleted out of spite! It won't take me very long to narrow down who it was. When I find out, we will surely be exchanging words because you're a useless bitch who loves attention so I will give your some! You are obviously a bitch whose dying for attention! BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU ASK FOR!
Oh, and you weren't looking out for a friend when you misconstrued my words, because if you were, you wouldn't forward something and twist my words. Karma is a BITCH! You will pay for your deeds no matter how small it may seem!
Fuck this, I am still heated! I have a mixed RL BFF and a VERY light skinned sister so wtf would I look like talking shit about light skinned or biracial women!? Raggedy bitch, reading is FUNDAMENTAL! I didn't sa ANYTHING rude or nasty about lightskinned or biracial women at ANY point or time! YOU ARE A FUCKING BOLD FACED LIAR! GO FUCK YOURSELF! Or do us ALL a favor and go KILL yourself! Make sure you run tell that! And phony ass cunt, make sure you unfriend me and do it fast! I don't want SHIT to do with your type of bitch! YOU ARE A NON MOTHERFUCKING FACTOR, BITCH!

REALLY, FACEBOOK, REALLY?

Un-believe-a-BULL! I have had an SL Facebook page for damn near a year...hell, I probably have had it for over a year! And all of a sudden Facebook gets a stick up its ass and decides to start deleting Facebook accounts based on the fact that our SL avatars are "fictional characters"! Well, I say fact but its not a fact! It may be a 3D virtual game, but at the end of the day, the PERSON behind the avatar is very much real! They want me to scan my RL identification to prove I am human, I guess. Well, OBVIOUSLY, I am human! 

How can I create the profile, interact with people, run a Zynga Cafe in Cafe World, if I am not real. So, obviously, there is some truth to my fiction. I don't know but I am NOT going to kill myself to make it known I am real. Its just stupid! 

I wasn't spamming or harassing. But what I think is behind this is jealous people, reporting others who may pose a threat to what the are trying to do. Its funny that a day AFTER I interact with someone who is doing a similar business to mine, I get deactivated for being a fictional character! Its enough room for ALL of us on the grid and on Facebook! So, they need to stoop to such levels to eliminate competition is so ridiculous! And it will come back to bite you in the ass!
Truly, its not that deep, Facebook! And if someone IS hating and reporting, its still not that deep! Some people take the fun out of EVERYTHING!

As Long As I'm Happy..SCREW YOU!

Yes, it is I! Back again with my rants, raves, gripes, and grunts! As, usual, they are valid and well deserved. *Sighs* Where should I begin? Oh, FIRST let me put a little disclaimer out there 
*If anything in this post offends you, GOOD! Maybe you will think about someone OTHER  than your SELF*
Now back to our regularly scheduled programming...
Typically, n0t always, but more so lately, I don't complain about being single in SL. I work on and off, I shop constantly, I am a Diva Queen in my sorority, and I do my fashion blogging for myself and Scarlett Niven. Coupled with my RL, I am pretty occupied. But, and there is ALWAYS a but, there are times when I sit idly by and twiddle my thumbs. Those are  the times I would love to have..well, love in SL. But, as I stated  in prior posts, it is ever elusive of my pixelized self.
Now what gets me is that I have those closest to me and some that I allow a glimpse into my SL because they are really awesome people, have decided, UNSOLICITED, that they would help me attain the happiness they have. They talk about how great things are for them,  I see the pictures, I see their SL Facebook statuses, I see the changed display names with his last name...Like, REALLY? And no, I am not jealous, green never looked that good on me. But damn sometimes its like, pour SALT all up and thru my wounds why dontcha?
You are all cocooned in your happiness and its like you are damn Biggie, "Fuck the world, don't ask me for SHIT! .." But as soon as yah shit hits the fan, hmmm...whose box are YOU in!? The single woman's box who is the shoulder you need! When my shoulder is cold, and you are once again in bliss, who is there to wrap an arm around me?
Now, I never do anything begrudgingly; if I listen to your problems I do it because I care and want you to know you have someone to confide in. But its just a TAD selfish of someone to know you have a good heart like that, to know you are a good person, to know you are very much interested and deserving of equal happiness to just rub it in every chance they get! Now I know that the people I personally associate with would never purposely throw something in my face, but put  yourself in my Moody's  and you would know what it feels like. So. pardon me if I don't want to be present and so and so's nuptials. I just lost that loving feeling right now, so to speak.
 Now, as far as guys getting at me on their own, I feel like a damn leper (not to offend any lepers) or like I have a branch growing out of my face or something! I rezz in a club, party, event or whatever and I see the dudes' cross hairs on me, I KNOW they are peeping my profile. Then they go to Shaniqua Boonquisha, with the tattoos from face to feet, hips and ass on 100, 50-11 piercings, with pasties over her nipples, her ass falling from under her skirt and you know that he hit her up! Mind you, her profile says, "If you broke, get da fuk out mah box...insert other ghetto text here" so immediately you know, if you want to even overlook all that OTHER superficial stuff, she doesn't have a brain in her damn head! But for some reason, that's what they want.
I am gonna be true to myself and always want to "date" a man so all that complexity of being bisexual and all that jazz "strictly" on Second Life? Well, you won't find me in that category. It's just not for me! I can't figure dudes out so a female would be much more complex! And, it goes against every thing I believe in. So, that's a negative! 
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know...I will of course, check back in when the wind blows. Hopefully, I am not singing the same sad song! Until then, toodles!

Year End Wrap Up

So, here it is, December 31st, and I survived another year in Second Life! I laughed, I cried, I lived, and I learned. It was another good year if for me. Granted, I didn't accomplish nearly as much as I wanted to, but I have ALREADY begun setting things in motion for a prosperous New Year in 2011 in real life, so why not do it for Second Life?
I am not even logging today because I am taking a breather from Second Life for a few days to enjoy friends and family and to kind of set a game plan in motion for things I want to accomplish. No, no, no, I did NOT make any resolutions; I never get a damn thing resolved when I do. Its just me deciding to make changes because I want to be the happiest I can be in real life AND my Second Life.
Most people I know in Second Life, spend a pretty fair amount of time inworld. Since we do so, its seems more likely that we would be doing constructive things with our time. Unfortunately, I have seen just the opposite! Especially amongst the urban, also known as, the African-American community. I hope that going into my 3rd year on Second Life, I see unity and harmony. We have enough disharmony in our community in real life, it seems so very pointless to come to a place that is supposed to be set for happiness and continuing the same patterns. It just makes absolutely zero sense to be negative, hateful, and try and hold each other back.
Half of your running around saying you have drama, haters and that people are jealous of you don't have a clue! At the end of the day, this is just a science experiment conducted by Linden Labs, in which we are all mere lab rats. Its best if we try to remember that. There is absolutely nothing you have in this 3D pixelized world that ANYONE can't have! Its all in how you "play the game"! You can do ANYTHING you want in Second Life, be ANYONE you want and have ANYBODY!
There is no reason for any one person to single out another and hate them. Its beyond pointless. I mean we can find people to envy and despise in real life who have more than we do, or look better or have the "perfect mate." We can't change our lives to out liking like we can Second Life. So with ALL the opportunities out there for you to have it all and do it all, I URGE you STRONGLY to go for it. Network, connect, explore, expand...do all the things they say you can do on the Second Life main page! Its truly possible!
But if you don't grab Second Life by the horns, you won't have the joy and excitement to be had inworld. All you will find is misery, anger, and loneliness. At some point, people will realize who you are and at some point you will realize its not everyone else, its YOU!
So in closing, make the necessary changes to your real life to be happy there first THEN concentrate on doing the same in your Second Life. If that's not as easy as it sounds and its possible it isn't, then what are you on Second Life to do exactly? Are you there to DOUBLE your misery? I assume you are there for an escape. So take that chance to create some happiness SOMEWHERE in your life! You deserve it...know that, own that and LIVE THAT!

The Dean's List (A Poem for World AIDS Day)

Way back in the day in the 3-0-5
in the heart of the ghetto
when the city was getting live
was a beautiful young lady who was becoming full grown
who left her proper upbringing
to call the streets her home
she left to study the fast life
and become a scholar
to learn to use what she got
to get what she want
and to make her momma and daddy holla
Way back in the day in the 3-0-5
in the heart of the ghetto
when the city was just getting live
that young lady learned from a pimp
how to survive
oddly enough it was only he who thrived
she sought the attention, the money...yet it wasn't how she planned
when she learned
the money she earned
went directly to that man
and
Way back in the day in the 3-0-5
in the heart of the ghetto
when the city was fully alive
a lost young lady learned lessons, while on her back she lie
somewhere in the interim, she stopped to hve two daughters
and it seemed she had been schooled on all the streets had taught her
but she must have craved to learn more
for she was back out the door
she hadn't yet found what she was looking for
Way back in the day in the 3-0-5
in the heart of the ghetto
when the the city got far too live
a mysterious little bug hit some folks
and they quickly started dying
a lot of the wrong people, felt at ease
for this was the gay, white man's disease
and being on the streets
this fast young woman thought she
was excluded from that number
even though with strnge men she did slumber
remember she was schooled in the ways of the concrete jungle
she wasn't gay, she wasn't white
thought none of how she lived herlife was right
no doctor's visits, no yearly exams did she have
just day after day on the stroll on Biscayne Ave.
Way back in the day in the 3-0-5
in the heart of the ghetto
when the city was getting live
she reminisced on the mistake in her life
she recalled how sexy she was
how the men gave her money
so they could have a taste of her sweet honey
show she left her kids to be care free
only to have a fatal virus to carry
she remembered how she could blow
do some blow
and in the end
she was
FULL BLOWN!
Because way back in the day in the 3-0-5
in the heart of the ghetto
when the city was getting live
she studied all the easiest subjects
drinking, drugs and prostitution
in which she got straight As
but learned the hardest lesson of them all when she died from AIDS


*Dedicated to my cousin Dean Wynn who lost her life to AIDS*

Me, me, me, me, ME!

No, I am not singing..I don't have shit to sing about right now in my Second Life. But I am not gonna make this post entirely about me right now. I will dedicate that to another post eve though this one is aptly titled.
This month is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. My sorority, Divas Inc., has been doing a lot of events for the cause. Now normally, when we do an event, we GIVE away items. It gets packed, people show up! But now that we are ASKING for donations for a REAL LIFE disease that's killing THOUSANDS if not and affecting MILLIONS of women every year  and EVERYONE is wrapped up in their own issues! Here are the statistics:

The American Cancer Society's most recent estimates for breast cancer in the United States are for 2010:

• About 207,090 new cases of invasive breast cancer in women
• About 54,010 new cases of carcinoma in situ (CIS) will be found (CIS is non-invasive and is the earliest form of breast cancer).
• About 39,840 deaths from breast cancer (women)

Breast cancer is the most common cancer among women in the United States, other than skin cancer. It is the second leading cause of cancer death in women, after lung cancer.

The chance of a woman having invasive breast cancer some time during her life is a little less 1 in 8. The chance of dying from breast cancer is about 1 in 35. Breast cancer death rates have been going down. This is probably the result of finding the cancer earlier and better treatment. Right now there are more than 2½ million breast cancer survivors in the United States.

One person even had the audacity to say, and I quote, "I didn't feel like doing that tonight." I was fucking FLOORED! You mean t say you couldn't come drop off a donation and leave? WOW! I am UTTERLY speechless!